Welcy to my site . .

last update: ꒰ 1/16/22 ꒱
running since: ꒰ fall of 2020 ꒱

Updates log

8/24/22 - what if i made a magical girl shrine? (੭。╹▿╹。)੭
8/25/22 - moved fashion and gaming to lucy’s corner.
8/26/22 - added my lists to lucy’s corner
8/28/22 - made a button ! thanks to the wonderful sadgrl.
9/5/22 - added virtual stickerbook to lucy’s corner
9/10/22 - added a quotationary and a toybox to lucy's corner
9/15/22 - added scrapbook to lucy's corner
9/18/22 - added a media status thingy to interests and added more sites to my loves. also added some more stuff to graphics collection
9/24/22 - book nook is now up and in lucy's corner!
11/9/22 - reorganized the sitemap!
11/17/22 - added gallery to lucy's corner, fixed up the quiz results page a little, and updated to to-do list! plus . . new diary entry !!
12/23/22 - fixed up interests and finished up mini-shrines

  • ♡ lucille! (she/fae)

  • ♡ intp-t・4w6・chaotic good

  • ♡ melancholic sanguine

  • ♡ early teenage girl (3teen)

  • ♡ 1/27 aquarius

  • ♡ hispanic catholic

  • ♡ ♏︎ ↑ ♒︎ ☉♒︎ ☾

  • ♡ bookworm and daydreamer

꒰ also known as lulu or lucy ꒱

About me

Uh . . . hi! I'm Lucille but just call me Lucy. I'll try to be brief with the intro, but yeah. Any and all feminine terms are fine with me! I'm puerto rican, making me a mix of western african, taíno, and spanish (thought I get told I look slavic). I am generally a smart, weird, emotional, and passionate person. Think of me as the one girl with the book in her hands 24/7. Sometimes I've even been told to stop because I do it all the time! My head is constantly in the clouds and I love music. I've been told I'm a bit of a teacher's pet . . but a nice one? I'm pretty passionate about my learning. I'm a big fan of taking care of animals and people, and I'm an even bigger sucker for time periods I wasn't even a thought in. On top of all that, I am now a webmistress. Most people think I'm quiet, but I really just need time to warm up to people. That's all :D

About my life:

My hobbies include ballet/lyrical dance, baton, collecting plushies, horseback riding, doodling, playing clarinet, and foraging! I also casually write poems and short stories (officially published once). I wish to start learning how to crochet and/or garden. I can also play chess! (my papa taught me how). I can only speak English and Spanish, but I hope to learn Russian and/or Japanese. I'm a junior high american schoolgirl currently attending a small private school and I live with my mom, dad, siblings, and adorable puppy. We live in a small suburban neighborhood, where I usually spend my time at the playground or the snack spots. My goal is to spread positivity and help others. I love my friends very much! I currently have no dream career :3

Please Read

I sometimes require tone tags and I am very hypersensitive and fail to read social cues due to mental/neurological issues. Because of this I ask be very lighthearted with the teasing and be gentle! I can be a little overly anxious/paranoid at times as well. I'm very open about my opinions and what I support. I may struggle with conversations, so please don’t be upset by timidness and failure to read social cues. I may ask you to re-explain someone if it didn’t register, and I am going through the evaluation process as there are suspicions I have autism and/or adhd. I'm very open about it, for any questions just ask! Please be aware of this before interacting, and check userboxes for more! Petnames are fine with me, in fact I adore them <3

About the site

Welcome to my cozy little corner of the internet! When it comes to social media, it can be a really dry place with lack of individuality and originality. So I decided to join the revival of the original web! Pretty neat, right? Maybe I was a baby in the early 2000's, but I still have a strong admiration for the old web. I saw people were getting back into the concept of creating personal webpages, so I gave it a shot! Here, I share everything about me! I had quite a few ugly first attempts, which I never really saved or archived so they're gone forever. When I spent more time browsing on neocities that’s when I really got the inspiration to make a site quite similar to that! And thus this beautiful mess was born. So welcome to my ever changing website. If you wanna contact me, feel free to check my links or sign my guestbook Have fun looking around ! :D

Site info

accessibility
Can be accessed on all devices! Multiple frames, no eyestrain / ear strain, and auto-play music coming soon! Can be viewed in all web browsers. Looks best on PC/laptop.
credits
Web materials / sozai credits go to middlepot! All userboxes / stamps here are not mine. Layout is NF2U, and I don't allow inpso!
warning
I don't exactly have a "dnfi/dni" criteria list, but if you attempt to interact with me and you make me uncomfortable in any shape or form, I will block you. Respect my boundaries and (obviously) bigots and creeps please go away.

FAQs

Why are you running this site?
Mostly just for fun! as stated earlier, I wanted my own outlet to express myself, a personal webpage is so much more cooler in my opinion (ㅅ´ ˘ `)
Where else can I find you?
You can find my socials at links, and you can request my discord for any questions or comments. (NO ADULTS)
What's the story behind your site name?
Well, it's two of my favorite things combined! One, ribbons, which are my absolute faves, and the texture "puffy" is a very nice one. It feels soft and cozy, right? So I just combined the two and changed the "puffy" to "puffie".
What does this site contain?
Whatever I want it to really! This is my personal site, so it's centered around my interests, who I am as a person, and general life.
What are some common themes/motifs of your site?
My theme is really just all the things I hold dear to my heart strung together in webpage form. Some common elements are but not limited to: teddy bears, ribbons, coziness, doilies and books.

Site rating

My site is rated PG. Any not so pleasent topics will be tagged. As I struggle with mental/nuerological issues, I will speak about it, but not in heavy details. The only section you'd wanna steer clear from when it comes to personal topics would be my diary. That's all though!

To-do list

- finish vanity page in fashion
- reorganize 2nd about page
- add natal chart image to typology
- finish shrine page
- finish gallery page
- finish photo album
- fix up hall of lists

My appearance

➳ height is 5'0-5'1 ft (160 cm.)
➳ I weigh 96 lbs. (43 kilograms)
➳ my hair is dark brown, slightly wavy, and down to my hips
➳ my shoe is a U.S. size 4 1/2
➳ my eye color is a greyish green
➳ my ring size is a 4 1/2
➳ my skin is a pale-ish olive and sensitive, I tan in summers
➳ I have small acne clusters on my cheeks
➳ general body type: petite
➳I have braces !! (current color: baby pink)

Likes and Dislikes

♡ ꒰〃˃͈ 0 ˂͈ 〃꒱ sanrio, tea parties, nature, sweets, teddy bears, mary jane shoes, old disney films, ribbons, stim toys, cute undergarments, horror, milkshakes, small spaces, poodle moths, cheese, vintage things, fairies, literature, kaomojis, plasma balls, going to church with nana, bunnies, cute stationery, nursery decor, silk nightgowns, odd facts, bubbles, music boxes, hopscotch, chess, && poetry!! ꒰ ◞ ⸝⸝⸝ ◟〃꒱ mosquito bites, fast food, getting sick, soda, bone cracking noises, hotdogs, being tickled, telling me "i’m too sensitive", tapioca pearls, the dsmp, chronic back pain, aesthetic culture, overly rude people, hardcore nsfw, burnt food, waking up early, fireworks, cold showers, math, skin picking && cigarette smoke

My favorites

  • Season: spring or winter

  • Color: baby blue / light pink

  • Food: tri-color pasta with dino nuggets

  • Drink: choco milk or cinnamon milk

  • Candy: fairy floss or butterscotch

  • Animal: lop-eared bunnies

  • Subject: english or science

  • Holiday: halloween or easter

  • Sweet: choco chip cookies or cheesecake

  • Ice Cream flavor: cookie dough

  • Music Genre: traditional pop

  • Scent: fresh baked bread / cookies, wet grass, and lavender

  • Flower: daisies, baby's breath, bluebells, and daffodils

  • Genre: horror, slice of life, and psychological

  • Hairstyle: pigtails or double braids

  • Sport: swimming / dance / baton

  • Book genre: fact books, realistic fiction, and fairytales

Fun Facts!

➳ I'm a huge night owl
➳ my birthstone is a garnet and rose quartz!
➳ my signature scent is peaches 'n cream
➳ I can play clarinet
➳ my fave bugs are butterflies, ladybird beetles, and rollie pollies!
➳ I know quite a bit about medieval torture methods
➳ my pain tolerance sucks and I bruise like a peach. despite this, I was never scared of getting bloodwork done or my teeth pulled
➳ I have four siblings! 1 big sister, 2 little brothers, and 1 baby sister
➳ my papa has met numerous famous people, one being levar burton
➳ I've met a centenarian. we had to sing for her birthday and she was so sweet (╥﹏╥)
➳ I'm an avid beanie boo collector! stuffies have been something I've held close to my heart ever since I could remember.

Moodboard

I tried my best to credit all creators! Click the memes for credits

Quiz Results

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Quiz Results

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Quiz Results

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Quiz Results

I am Hanako Yamada! A kind, sweet, innocent and lovesick girl who loves all things cutesy. You can be a bit bratty and a bit rude but you truly are a sweetheart! Find out which yandere sim character you are here!

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My Kins

Primary Kins

kinsidering: sayori from ddlc
current kin count: 12

psst…click the icons for their wikis! secondary kins aren't ones i'm heavily connected to . . but i still feel they should be there. also i just do this for fun, nothing serious ꒰ ˃͈ દ ˂͈ ༶ ⑅ ꒱

Comfort Characters

this list is absolutely horrendous but these are just characters that comfort me in some shape or form. is this a roller coaster? yes.

Self insert thingies

my skroinkly scrimblos <3

Stamps

Web + Identity badges

Blinkies

Userboxes

Fanlistings

Buttons

Natal Chart

In all honesty I just think astrology and typology is neat, I don't heavily believe in it. Feel like micro-anaylyzing me? Here.

Descriptions

Scorpio Rising ♏︎
You tend to be quiet, reserved, secretive and, at times, quite difficult to understand. Others notice your deep emotions and feelings and wonder how to draw you out. Stubborn and tough, you fight for any position you believe in. You are very resourceful and formidable when you become angered or upset about something. Easily hurt by others, you often strike back with bitter sarcasm. Sensitive and curious, you are concerned with the deeper mysteries of human psychology. Once you have become interested in any subject, you pursue it with total fanaticism.
Aquarius Sun ♒︎
You get bored with the status quo and are generally open to new things and ideas. An individualist and a free spirit, your friends are quite important to you as long as they do not try to tie you down by making too many emotional demands on you. Your thoughts are offbeat and you're a bit eccentric, but not always very changeable. As a matter of fact, you can be quite stubborn at times. Extremely objective, with good powers of observation, you would be qualified to study technical and complicated subjects, like science, computers or maybe even astrology.
Aquarius Moon ♒︎
Very freedom-oriented, you must always be able to do what you wish, no matter what. You become stubborn and recalcitrant when others try to force you into a mold. You are a true democrat -- you are not a follower, but you enjoy being with those who are like-minded.

Pisces Mercury ♓︎
You are a careful thinker, very cautious and conservative. You are quite skillful at organizing, directing and planning activities. Practical and useful things interest you -- you are not attracted to abstract thoughts or ideas. With your tendency to be highly focused and very goal-oriented, you have a good head for business. But beware of a tendency to be narrow-minded and dogmatic. Your sense of humor tends toward being earthy and slapstick crude.
Pisces Venus ♓︎
You have a dreamy, fanciful, romantic nature and a very creative imagination. Indeed, at times, your private fantasies are more appealing than the reality around you and it is difficult for you to leave them. You tend to be unselfish and giving in relationships and are extremely sensitive of the needs of others. Be very sure that those you help are worthy of your devotion and are not merely taking advantage of your innocence and naivete.

Capricorn Mars ♑︎
Extremely ambitious, you are willing to work very hard to reach the goals you have set for yourself. Very practical, cautious and conservative, you demand tangible results for your efforts. You need to excel in whatever you do, and you have the required sense of responsibility, dedication and self-discipline to bring it about. Beware of your tendency to judge others only by their degree of status and prestige, or by how well they will be able to advance you in your climb to the top.
Aquarius Jupiter ♒︎
Your personal growth occurs when you have the freedom to do things in new and interesting ways -- this brings out your natural inventiveness. You are an individualist, but you are also attracted to mass movements that emphasize social betterment and you will devote much time and energy to their efforts. Very fair- minded and objective, you have extraordinary skills at organization and administration.
Virgo Saturn ♍︎
Your life must be orderly and practical and full of known and familiar routines in order for you to feel comfortable with yourself. Be careful, however, not to let "order" become the be-all and end-all of your life, or you may become cold, crass and unfeeling. Doing useful, practical things boosts your self- esteem. Abstract concepts and reasoning seem frivolous and a waste of time to you. You are very critical of yourself (and others), indeed at times quite self-deprecating. Try to relax a bit and allow yourself the freedom to fail once in a while. However, you probably won't fail very often because you are such a perfectionist.

Uranus Pisces ♓︎
You, and most of your peers, are extremely idealistic and want to change society by completely reorienting its highest religious goals and aspirations. Just be careful to make sure that your new goal structures are properly grounded in reality so that they have a chance of being accepted by the majority.
Aquarius Neptune ♒︎
You, and your entire generation, will idealize and even venerate the ability to remain detached as well as the ability to objectively analyze any given situation. There will be a concerted effort on your part to cure the ills of society as a whole. But be very careful to continue to maintain and protect the rights of individuals in the midst of these potentially far-reaching changes.
Capricorn Pluto ♑︎
For your entire generation, this is a period of intense changes in the very fabric of society. Many accepted institutions may pass away or be born anew. The good of the community as a whole will be stressed and individual rights may come under attack. This will possibly be a period of decay that will lead to a new order.

Aquarius N. Node ♒︎
As long as someone else (or a group or organization) appeals to your intellectual sensibilities, you'll try to ally yourself with them in some way. You may find that you always seem to get involved with many wide-ranging groups -- so much so that you find it difficult to fit them all into your busy schedule. Your many friends and acquaintances provide you with needed stimulation. You're loyal and fair-minded -- you try to spend time equally with all your friends, never concentrating on just one or two for any length of time. Although probably quite conservative yourself, you're attracted to those who are a bit offbeat or eccentric -- you enjoy watching their minds work.

Myer Brigg's MBTI

INTP means introverted, intuitive, thinking, and perceiving. It is one of the 16 personality types described by the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI).1 People who score as INTP are often described as quiet and analytical. They enjoy spending time alone, thinking about how things work and coming up with solutions to problems. INTPs have a rich inner world and would rather focus their attention on their internal thoughts rather than the external world. They typically do not have a wide social circle, but they do tend to be close to a select group of people. INTP-T: This subtype is referred to as the "Turbulent Logician" and, when compared to an INTP-A, feels less comfort both personally and in terms of their current life. They also tend to be slightly less confident. INTPs are quiet, reserved, and thoughtful. As introverts, they prefer to socialize with a small group of close friends with whom they share common interests and connections. An INTP enjoys thinking about theoretical concepts and tends to value intellect over emotion. They are logical and base decisions on objective information rather than subjective feelings. When analyzing data and making decisions, an INTP is highly logical and objective. INTPs tend to be flexible and good at thinking "outside of the box." People with the INTP personality type think about the big picture rather than focusing on every tiny detail. INTPs like to keep their options open and feel limited by structure and planning.

strengths vs. weaknesses
logical and objective, abstract thinker, Independent, loyal and affectionate with loved ones
difficult to get to know, can be insensitive, prone to self-doubt, struggles to follow rules, has trouble expressing feelings

The four temperants

The Melancholic-Sanguine has a natural smile. They are analytical, systematic, and sensitive to the needs of others. This is a versatile, productive individual who works well with most anyone. The Melancholic-Sanguine likes to have fun and laugh when they feel comfortable and accepted. The Sanguine-Melancholy is driven by two temperament needs. The primary need is to be accepted socially. The secondary need is to do things right. Either need may dominate their behavior depending on the requirements of the situation. When the Sanguine and the Melancholy natural tendencies are combined, it produces a people-person who is sensitive, creative, and detail-oriented. The Sanguine-Melancholy is more formal and emotional than the other Sanguine blends. This combination is naturally able to perform in front of others to meet the need of the moment. he Sanguine-Melancholy has a very active, vivid imagination causing them to be creative in many areas like music, the performing arts, writing, decoration, problem solving, etc.

The four temperaments (cont.)

The Sanguine-Melancholy has a deep need to know that they will be accepted by others. They often struggle with questions like, “Why did I do that?”, “Why didn’t I do something else?”, “Did I say that right?”. They often have difficulty going to sleep because they are thinking too much; reviewing, planning, fretting, or creating. The Sanguine-Melancholy's emotions may fluctuate, especially if they are embarrassed or they have been, or may be, rejected. They can do things to an extreme. The Sanguine-Melancholy tends to warm up slowly to new people because they are unsure of how they are being received. They tend to be very image conscious and actively seek recognition for their achievements. Once they feel safe or accepted, they become more friendly.

Picturebook

wanna know what i look like? you're at the right place! click here for my clothing taste

Picrews

all are linked so just click the icons! in some i have my hair down, some i have them in cute hairstyles like pigtails. i also have glasses in a few because i do sometimes wear glasses! my hair is really weird so sometimes it has these wavy tiny curls and other times it's really straight.

Lookalikes

disclaimer: cosette is an OC, and was made by uwuboa! cosette does not belong to me at all. click the icon for credits :)

This or that?

Morning or Night?
honestly midday or early night.
Lefty or Righty?
righty. teaching myself to be ambidextrous though
Dogs or Cats?
can't choose! they all have my heart. I prefer kitties for lolita prints though :3
Introvert or Extrovert?
ambivert, and yes that is a valid answer.
Coffee or Tea?
as long as they're sweet and loaded with sugar, I don't mind either!
Online or IRL shopping?
definitely in-person shopping, I'm small so it's vital i get to try stuff on.
Hotdogs or Burgers?
neither. I just eat the bread (╹◡╹)
Dots or Stripes?
dots! they make any article of clothing better by default.
Nightgowns or Matching sets?
nightgowns! bonus points if they're frilly
Ribbons or Bows?
gosh I can't choose . . .
Fruit or Veggies?
fruit! I love berries in sweets or smoothies <3

Random Questions

1. Your biggest fear?
A lot of it it stupid stuff because of paranoia and overthinking.
2. What makes you feel tired?
Usually warmth and coziness (obviously).
3. How do you text/type?
Proper punctuation, lots of kaomojis/emotes, and according to others I have a very admirable vocabulary.
4. What are your eating habits like?
Very weird. I snack around the clock, and I tend to be very picky but have a lot of weird food combos/rituals. I have a small appetite, really.
5. Do you collect things?
Yes! Rocks/leaves, stuffies, and a rubberband jewelry (I make it myself :3)
6. Least favorite thing about yourself?
Picking just one, my work ethic.
7. Biggest love language?
Touch!! I love hugs, cuddles, braiding/playing with hair, head/belly pats, and everything in between.
8. What is hard for you to admit?
That I am kind of a sucker for romance. It's just so .. yk ⸜(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)⸝

♡ cartoonies + shows ♡

꒰ my little pony, gravity falls, summer camp island, stranger things, star vs. the forces of evil, molang, gilmore girls, adventure time, community, the amazing world of gumball, moral orel, care bears, my life as a teenage robot, don't hug me i'm scared, the moomins, harvey beaks, craig of the creek, the good place, lego monkie kid, big city greens, ducktales (2017), steven universe, && over the garden wall ꒱

♡ music ♡

꒰ kikiyama, lana del rey, melanie martinez, russ morgan and his orchestra, princess chelsea, sewerslvt, bernadette carroll, jack stauber, dazey and the scouts, nicole dollanganger, jack off jill, kali uchis, jazmin bean, yuele, dandelion hands, mitski, destroy boys, deftones, lesley gore, patience and prudence, TV girl, and kikuo ꒱

♡ animanga ♡

꒰ little witch academia, a whisker away, lucky star, erased, high rise invasion, puella magi madoka magica, cowboy bepop, bungou stray dogs, neon genesis evangelion, cardcaptor sakura, ouran highschool host club, death note, jujustu kaisen, the promised neverland, girl's last tour, panty and stocking with garterbelt, and mahou shoujo site ꒱

♡ video games ♡

꒰ yandere simulator, doki doki literature club, mario kart, tattletale, splatoon 2&3 , animal crossing, mario kart, roblox, minecraft, omori, little misfortune, everskies, super mario odyssey, && my fluffy life

♡ movies ♡

꒰ jennifer's body, corpse bride, k-12, lolita (1962 & 1997), girl interrupted, cinderella, it (2017), bambi, mean girls, coraline, poltergeist (1982), kamikaze girls, black swan, WALL-E, carrie (1976), heathers, 13 going on 30, nightmare before christmas, the addams family (1991), the shining, alice in wonderland, perfect blue, aristocats, and more! ꒱

♡ youtubers ♡

꒰ markiplier, david firth, cyber.grl, karlhadrika, nicole TV, kurtis conner, meatcanyon, bubbleflix, danny gonzalez, penguinz0, battington, alex gus, faline-san, jerma, the queer kiwi, illymations, joel g, mina le, scribble juice, vewn, sweet bunny blushes, the crow formlery known as piper sweeney, jaiden animations, funkyfitz, bill wurst, && pilotredsun ꒱

♡ miscellaneous ♡

꒰ vocaloid (itself and the lore), SCP foundation, the unsent project, existentialistic topics, 20th century european/american history && pop culture, hellenistic mythology, youtube iceberg, j-fashion, early 2000's web culture, and science ( esp mineralogy !! )

♡ collections ♡

stuffies, jewelry (mostly rubberband), random trinkets, sensory toys, books, sanrio merch, stationery, feminine body care products ꒱

my favorites are highlighted! for more on books, stop by here.

Media Status

reading: the desolations of devil's acre (ransom riggs)
watching: camp camp
playing: splatoon 3
listening to: omori OST by omori

last updated: 1/25/23

Dear Diary…

Welcome to my diary/blog thingy on my humble internet adobe. I try to update this as much as I can :P

8/20/22
I went to a mall today and had so much fun! I wore my ruffled blouse, b&w pleated skirt, white tights, and mary janes. I got a ton of compliments and felt rlly special! I took a little backpack with me that held my phone, chapstick, and some other stuff just in case. we visited all kinds of stores, even an international snack boutique! I got chupa chups (mexican lollipops) and japanese skittle gummies. there were tons of snack places, and my papa took me to get a fresh baked pretzel! it was delicious! we stopped at hot topic and I got a cannibal corpse t-shirt. I got a large so it fit like a huge baggy dress almost. after going to bath and and body works, victoria’s secret etc. we stopped at the food court for pizza! after that we went to this comic place that had pins, vinyls, board games, manga, and more! it was super cute and I ended up getting a pusheen plushie. after that we were all pretty tired, the mall was huge after all. we drove home and that was it, but it was a blast!
8/29/22
today we arrived at puerto rico! the flight took almost 5 hours cause of bad weather but everything went smoothly and plane snacks are good :3 we rented out a car and drove to the hotel, it's huge and has a ton of stuff! there's a casino, a pool, tons of restaurants, a spa, gold courses, and more. plus they even have parrots ?? like hello, that's so cool !! we ended up visiting a gift shop, and I got an adorable rabbit plushie ! I named his cinnamon :) the coquí frogs are genuinely so beautiful and the island is absolutely breathtaking, i'm very proud to be from here !
10/1/22
today's my mother's birthday, so I wanted to celebrate by leaving a small something here for her! my mom is truly amazing, when I cry, she drys my tears. when i'm restless, she cuddles me close and sing me lullabies. when i'm upset, she'll talk me through it and make me smile. I love my mother, for her years of kindness and gentleness. also for managing to stay sane in such a crazy household. to her, I go by many names. I go by lucy-bug, her little canary, honeybun. she will always be home. happy birthday mama, love you ( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ )
10/31/22
today is halloween !! aaa one of my favorite times of the year! today was a total blast. last friday, I stood a little late after school to help decorate the building for monday. since i'm apart of the student council (co-president), it's one of my responsibilities. later that day I went to the halloween party my school threw and it was so much fun ! I got a ton of compliments on my costume, ate tons of snacks, and helped build/work the haunted house. we even got to jumpscare the older grades ! I took tons of pictures with my friends and we just about danced till our feet were sore. I dressed up as one of those poodle skirt saddle shoe girls from the 50's. on monday, we got to spend the day in a full on decorated school, where we read scary stories, did halloween coloring sheets, and got to watch a scary movie ! (poltergeist). after school, I did two rounds of trick-or-treating and got tons of candy ! i'll stop writing about it now cause I need to get some sleep hehe
11/9/22
I try to keep things lighthearted, but this is a topic that's really been itching at me. lately, I feel like because of my neurological differences i'm just destined to be outcasted. I feel excluded and people never really do seem to understand me as a person, and it makes me feel so alienated. I am not ashamed to be disabled, and could not be prouder to be apart of my community, but it gets rough sometimes. in science class, a kid dropped a pan so I jumped and covered my ears, and one kid barks at me "what are you like one of those special autistic kids?" and called me the r-word not just once, but twice. I reported it to my teachers, and hopefully we can get this all sorted out. I wish people would stop seeing me as a pet or an alien. i'm not diseased and i'm not crazy. tomorrow, I visit my therapist at the autism center. hopefully I can get some advice on this whole thing.
11/17/22
hihi . . so yes this is going to sound very corny and sappy. i'm a teenage girl, ok ? let me have some fun for once! so basically - there's this boy. he's really sweet, handsome, smart, and every other amazing thing. i've known him for years and he's just now started giving me butterflies ? it's weird, but I don't question it. I really just want him to look at me and think I'm the prettiest, sweetest girl he's ever seen. gosh I feel so corny writing this right now . . but i'm not gonna apologize for showing natural and genuine emotion. call me "cringe", I could care less really. anyway, he's just so . . dafqeroqdcoiasdibw (⁄ ⁄•⁄-⁄•⁄ ⁄). I just want to hold his hand and cuddle with him and go on those cute picnic dates and do all those wonderful things - and kiss him all over his big stupid face. having my heart skip a beat whenever I see him is an annoying sensation but one i'll have to get used to. so yeah, I have a crush. my very first.
11/27/22
Thanksgiving break is ending today, which i'm pretty sad about, but I did really enjoy it. for one, Thanksgiving was the best !! there was SO much food :3 from charcuterie boards and shrimp for the appetizers, turkey, yams, mac n' cheese, and arroz con gandules for entrees, and flan, mini-cheesecakes, and pumpkin pie for deserts. I ate like a ton !! I also got to play dominos with my papa and siblings, which was a ton of fun. my cousin JJ came to my house to sleepover for the weekend, which would've been a lot cooler if I wasn't feeling so icky. unfortunately, I was in fact feeling a little under the weather the entire time, and I still do, a few hours after she's left. so a majority of my Thanksgiving break was spent with honey ginger tea, cough drops, tissues, vapo rub, bitter cough medicine, and throat numbing spray. so that sucked :C. however, Christmas season is finally here ! me and my siblings are gonna make a gingerbread house and the family is gonna gather together to decorate the tree !
12/25/22
today is Christmas and I could NOT be more excited. Last night, we went to Radio City Music Hall to see the Rockettes, and it was an absolutely breathtaking experience! today we opened our gifts, and my whole family was there! I got all kinds of gifts, but among my favorites are the official K-12 backpack, a hello kitty food mold, and my very own tea set! (it's light blue with roses on it :3) we had brioche french toast with powdered sugar, bacon, scrambled eggs, and fruit for breakfast. we went to my nana and papa's house for Christmas dinner, and it was delicious! I got a few sanrio trinkets like keychains and lip smackers, which I also totally adore. today was amazing! happy holidays :D
1/11/23
wowie, first entry of the new year! i'd like to start off by saying I hope you enjoyed your New Year's celebration if it's already the new year where you are. secondly, I received my acceptance letters from the high schools I applied to ! I was SO nervous because a couple of kids in my class started to cry, but I would later get the news I was accepted into my first choice (MAYBE ON A SCHOLARSHIP?? WE DON'T KNOW YET) and got accepted into my second choice for the honors program ! i'm so proud of myself, and me and my family went to go get pizza at my favorite pizzeria to celebrate. it was so nice to celebrate classmates, we've all been together for years and we're all just a huge family. the happy tears, the hugs, the screams of excitement, it was all a beautiful moment I won't forget, ever. today was special, a stepping stone into teen-hood. this growing up stuff doesn't look easy- wish me luck.

Gaming

Royale High (Roblox)
Level: 969
Playing for: 3 years, 10 months, 9 days
Experience: Pro
Splatoon II
Level: 27
Playing for: 1-2 years
Experience: Semi-pro
Arsenal (Roblox)
Level: 191
Playing for: 3 years
Experience: Pro
Dank Memer (Discord)
Level: N/A
Networth: $31,614,225 USD
Occupation: Discord Mod (hehe funni)
Pet: Pudding (she’s a bunny)
Experience: Pro
My Fluffy Life
Level: 2
Playing for: a few weeks
Experience: Noobie
Breaking Point (Roblox)
Level/Rank: 35
Wins: 647
Kills: 3260
Deaths: 2281
Accuracy 83%
Experience: Semi-Pro

MIscellaneous Info

consoles
- ps4 (occasionally)
- chromebook
- nintendo switch
friend codes
- my fluffy life: EFVUT7
- nintedo : SW-8079-3329-9884
currently playing: splatoon 3
up next: nothing in particular :P

Fashion

lover of frills and lace
(art credits linked)

My fashion taste

I’m very hyperfeminine! I adore floral, ditsy, and gingham patterns. My wardrobe consists mostly of plaid skirts, hair ribbons, petticoats, silk stockings, lacy nightgowns/pj's, frilly dresses, blouses, etc. My style doesn’t exactly have a label, but is heavily influenced by 50's babydoll/teen girl fashion and girly kei. I am a lolita! For now, I only participate in the sweet / classic subcultures, but I hope to get into the sailor subculture. I frequently post pictures of my outfits to give people fashion inspo and such!

My Outfits

a slight wip lol :P

Places I shop:

- lojastein.com
- babydollboutique.com
- deerdoll.com

all are self made small businesses that are good for the environment and are not fast fashion ⸜(。˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝

My lolita story + Guide

Lolita is a very hard subculture to navigate, so I composed this tiny guide to help any beginners! I'm leaving a few links below to sites that have many amazing resources. I discovered lolita when I was maybe 11 or 12? If you're like me (a preteen/baby teen), lolita can be hard to get into because of strict parents, no personal bank account etc. But it doesn't stop me! You're never too young (or old) to be lolita! I've had quite a few condescending experiences because of my age + the fact that I'm a beginner, which is why I wanna help you guys out. Also hispanic / black lolitas >>>

My loves

A page dedicated to all the lovely people in my life ♡

irls: alex, melanie, selena, lizeth, may-may, sophia c., william, elysee, matthew, sophia o., maxwell, shayna, etc.online: the cellmates (gc), karson, cole, jay, angellica, dua, weirdos (gc), + a few more!my lovely siblings, mom and dad, and puppies, love you to the moon and back!my papa for making me laugh and the days i spent telling him stories in his lap, and my nino for picking me up and swinging me around so i could fly. you guys all spoil me a little too much ♡my cousins too !! ahh love u guys <3

Lovemail

this is a tiny corner dedicated to my crush! we've known each other since grade school, and remain good friends now. he's sweet, funny, smart (and charmingly stupid sometimes). we're both polar opposites, in both appearance and personality, but despite this we both perfectly balance each other out. he's always happy to see me, and we have the kind of dynamic you see in movies. i'm very glad he's in my life. i won't share his actual name, let's call him charlie. strictly irl. we're both minors, please don't be weird! thank you ♡

Lucy's corner

Photo Album

virtual memory archive (๑•v•๑)
gonna add more soon!

Metropolitan Museum of art

Virtual mini-shrines

a place for all things close to my heart! not full blown shrines but more just miniature shrines, enjoy !

Vocaloid

What is Vocaloid?
Vocaloids are voice synthesizer applications that are sold commercially and are commonly attached to fictional personas. Vocaloid first caught popularity in the early 2000's, and still reamins relavent today. Vocaloid is used by many well known producers such as Kikuo, Ghost and Pals, etc. Vocaloids are primarily known to sing in English or Japanese, but recently it's been diversifying and you can find all kinds of Vocaloid in other languages! One of the best known Vocaloids is Hatsune Miku, a young girl with blue pigtails and a futuristic outfit that resembles that of a school uniform. The realm of Vocaloid has developed into a full blown world of its own, bringing new musicians, virtual concerts, and merchandise with it.

My Experience
I recently just started getting heavily into Vocaloid, but I've been aware of its existence for years now. I'm still building and expanding my taste, but for now my favorite Producers are Kikuo, Masa (Works Design), and Kiichi. My favorite Vocaloids are Calne Ca. (derivative of Hatsune Miku), Megpoid Gumi, Kagamine Rin, Hatsune Miku, Oliver, Yameii Online, and Hanatan (Utaite). My favorite songs are Okaasan, Gomenne Gomenne, The Fox's Wedding, iiillluuuvvvUUU, Desert Theatre, and Boku wo sonname de minaide. Vocaloid merchandise does not heavily interest me and is a little too pricey so none of that </3

Resources
vocaloid wiki vocaloid wiki yt my favorite songs

Sanrio

What is Sanrio?
Sanrio is a Japanese company that was founded in 1962 by Shintaro Tsuji. They manufacture and license merchandise of their official characters and are a huge contributor to kawaii culture. They have collaborated with multiple well know clothing, food, and general brands. The company has almost 400 characters, the most well known being Hello Kitty, a white cat who's classic outfit is a pair of denim overalls and a pink hair bow. Their products include but are not limited to clothing/jewelry/accessories, stuffies, housewear/decor, stationery, and beauty products. There are licensed films and TV shows with the characters as well, and multiple official locations around the globe.

My Story
Sanrio is something I've loved for years and years now, and is something I hold very close to my heart. My mother loved it as a young girl too, and even gave me some of her old Sanrio stuff. She primarily loved Hello Kitty, but I adore multiple characters. My favorites are Little Forest Fellow, Hummingmint, My Melody, Pompompurin, Bonbonribbon, Spottie Dottie, and My Melody. I adore Pochacco and Button Nose too! I have a growing collection of Sanrio stuff, from plushies and toys to clothing and cute accessories/jewelry.

Resources
sanrio wiki page official website

Ty Beanie Boos

What are Ty Beanie Boos?
Boy am I glad you asked me that. Beanie Boos are small plush toys that are manufactured by the children's company Ty, that has been in business since 1986. Ty specializes in selling children's dolls/toys, and they have partnered with many famous companies like McDonald's and Hasbro. They first started making Beanie Boos in 1994 and they've caught the hearts of millions of children ever since. Nowadays, Beanie Boos have fallen quite out of style but that hasn't stopped me from loving them! Beanie Boos are small plush animals that have been transferred to clips, purses, and squishies.

My Story
As far back as I can remember, I have adored these small furry stuffies. And it was quite pparent, because my entire family and a majority of my friends knew. Christmas? Beanie Boo. Birthday? Beanie Boo. Just a gift? Again, Beanie Boo. I have an ever growing collection of them that currently reside in playroom bins, on bedroom shelves, and my bed itself. I even used to celebrate the birthdays printed on the little tags. My all time favorite is Magic, a pink unicorn beanie boo who I could say is like my the equivalent of a "my first teddy bear" (even though I did already get a first teddy, she was like a second shot). I loved her so much, but one day I caught lice and had to get rid of her. I was absolutely heartbroken, sobbed about it for a few good days. I had a huge emotional attachment to her. Not too soon after though, I got another one and like to think it's the original in spirit, don't ask why (╥﹏╥). I still have Magic, she resides on the highest shelf of my bedroom closet as of now!

Resources
official website beaniepedia

Lolita Fashion

What is Lolita?
Lolita is a genre of Japanese Fashion that first caught popularity in the 80's-2000's. It has its roots in 70's Otome Kei fashion and is heavily inspired by Victorian children's clothing and Rococo era fashion. Lolita includes multiple subcultures, and each have their own motifs. Overall, elements such as antiquity, femininity, and cutesy stuff are highly revered. The Lolita genre has a strong-knit community, a rich and thorough history, and complex and strict requirements. The masculine version of Lolita is called Boystyle (Lolita)/Ouji.

My Experience
I first discovered Lolita when I was around 11 years old, and ever since it had held a special place in my heart. I've been a lolita for two (almost 3) years now, and I so far have one complete coordinate. I participate in the sweet/classic subcultures specifically, but I adore shiro and hime lolita. I hope to get into sailor lolita. I've spent most of my time reading up on forums, blogs, and other websites. I still slightly feel isolated from the community because I haven't been able to find many online Lolita communities. I only have one IRL friend of mine who is a lolita as well, and we bond a lot over it. My favorite stuff comes from TaoBao and Angelic Pretty!

My lists

longterm goals

- clear skin
- eat healthier ( NO SNACKING !! >:C)
- visit a lolita meetup in nyc
- learn basic HTML / CCS coding
- win student council president

add to my wardrobe :3

- pretty lacy gloves
- bloomers (only have the ones that come built into the skirts </3)
- a parasol
- saddle shoes

my wishlist

- omori switch cartridge
- mosquito net (for princess bed <3)
- deer doll lolita teddy JSK
- ddlc switch cartridge
- ms. peregrine's home for peculiar children series
- cottagecore switch cover
- k-12 melanie martinez backpack
- splatoon 3 switch cartridge

My routines

morning routine

- brush teeth
- wash face
- make bed
- prayer
- breakfast

nightly routine

- prayer
- warm milk 'n small snack
- reading / journaling
- warm up weighted cuddle buddy

afterschool routine

- take off shoes at door
- wash hands
- bath time!
- snack + homework
- pack snack and lunch
- set out uniform for tomorrow

stuffie masterlist

- jelli (giant teddy bear)
- cheeseburger (weighted sloth)
- eva (pink 'n purple elephant beanie boo)
- cinnamon (jellycat bunny)
- roy g. biv (giant rainbow chameleon arcade prize)
- lollipop (multi-colored bunny beanie boo)
- autumn (traditional style teddy bear)
- pinguino (penguin from aquarium gift shop)
- sweetheart (build-a-bear bunny)
- lemon drop (duck beanie boo)
- simba (lion king plush from gift shop)
- unnamed (black cat squishmallow)
- pingu (blue penguin from mall)
- marty (yellow shark squishmallow)
- hello kitty x pusheen plushie
- magic (unicorn beanie boo)
- punchy (blue flip-inside-out octopus)
- blueberry (tiny aurora cow plush)
- cinnamon (tan dog squishamallow)
- pinky (pink fluffle from universal)
- unnamed (bunny from sesame place)
- fetch (dalmatian beanie boo pillow)
- pegasus (white 'n yellow unicorn beanie boo)
- hello kitty stuffie
- kuromi stuffie
- unamed (orca plushie from sea world)

list is under construction! faves are highlighted. stuffies have been a huge hyperfixation of mine as far back as i can remember, meaning i have a ton. so . . list is under construction!

Nurse Lucy

you deserve to feel warm, cozy, safe, and happy. please let me try and help. i hope these help you, please remember help is always here <3

Small Reminders

  • - shower and eat

  • - clean your room

  • - rest if you have to

  • - you are loved and your life matters

  • - change is always possible

  • - i am so proud of you!

  • - drink water

  • - take a screen break

Small Note

No matter what happens, you will always be a human. Nobody can take that away from you. Life can be tough, but it can also be beautiful, trust me. But we can't just sit there waiting for it, we have to step outside our comfort zones and explore it ourselves. There are so many reasons we can feel hurt and broken, and feel we need to leave this planet, get away from it. But there are just as much reasons to stay. Keep going. There’s so much more to see! The internet can be a horrible place, but it can also be beautiful. Remember to take breaks and prioritize yourself!

Virtual Stickerbook

most stickers i collected are from here, and here! they're all from the 80's-2000's

Virtual Flair Board

just a massive online collection of pins. feel free to let me know if you have any I can add to my growing collection!

Lucy’s Toybox

my adoptables! all are linked back to their mother site ⸜(。˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝

Fruity Kitties

Fantasy Creatures

Creepy Cute

Plants + Animals

Animanga

Neopets & Tokidoki Unicorns

Stuffie shelf

squishmallows

zhu zhu pets

beanie boo babies

Pretty Gyarus!!

Miscellaneous

My Bookshelf

personal favorites

childhood books

Book log

disclaimer: this log has been discontinued <3

1. Go with the Flow - Lily Williams and Karen Schneeman
Started: 9/5/22
Finished: 9/6/22
2. Forget me Not - Ellie Terry
Started: 9/6/22
Finished: 9/9/22
3. Miss Peregrine's home for Peculiar Children - Ransom Rigs
Started: 9/9/22
Finished: 9/12/22
4. Hollow City - Ransom Riggs
Started: 9/12/22
Finished: 9/14/22
5. Library of Souls - Ransom Riggs
Started: 9/14/22
Finished: 9/19/22
6. The House on Mango Street - Sandra Cisneros
Started: 9/21/22
Finished:9/23/22
7. They called us Enemy - George Takei
Started: 9/27/22
Finished: 9/29/22
8. The Outsider - S.E Hinton
Started: 9/30/22
Finished:
9. El Deafo by Cece Bell
Started: 10/2/22
Finished: 10/4/22
10. The Breadwinner Trilogy - Deborah Ellis
Started: Unknown
Finished: 10/13/22
11. My name is Parvana - Deborah Ellis
Started: 10/18/22
Finished: 10/19/22
12. Maybe he just likes you - Barbara Dee
Started: Unknown
Finished: 10/24/22
13. You don't know everything Jilly. P! - Alex Gino
Started: 11/5/22
Finished: 11/7/22
14. Look both ways - Jason Reynolds
Started: 11/8/22
Finished: 11/10/22
15. Child of the Dream - Sharon Robinson
Started: 11/16/22
Finished: 11/22/22

My Scrapbook

just a place to log all forms of media consumption :P

Scrapbook Key

★☆☆☆☆ personal rating
✅ - completed
✏️ - in progress
❌ - have not completed

Album ratings

born to die: lana del rey ★★★☆☆
thoughts: very well written and complex
we had good times together, don't forget that: sewerslvt ★★★★☆
thoughts: absolutely destroyed me
crybaby: melanie martinez ★★★★★
thoughts: mel never misses
natural born losers: nicole dollanganger ★★★★☆
thoughts: made me cry :C , it's so beautiful though
lil mariko: lil mariko ★★★☆☆
thoughts: very graphic lol
make room: destroy boys ★★★★☆
thoughts: the best !! each song is so catchy
WASTELAND: brent faiyaz ★★★★★
thoughts: absolute work of art, so well written and may or may not have made me violently sob

TV shows

✅ Komi Can't Communicate
- [ s1, animanga ]
✏️ Lego Monkie Kid
- [ s1-s3, cartoon ]
✅ Magical Girl Site
- [ s1, animanga ]
✏️ Community
- [ s1-s6, comedy ]
✅ Little Witch Academia
- [ s1-s2, animanga ]
✏️ Girls last tour
- [ s1, animanga ]
✅ Stranger things
- [ s1-s4, horror(ish?) show ]
✏️ Cardcaptor Sakura
- [ s1-s3, animanga ]
✅ Don't hug me I'm scared
- [ s1-s2, webseries + TV ]
✅ Moral Orel
- [ s1-s3, TV ]

Movies

✅ Jennifer's Body
- [ 2009, thriller ]
✅ Girl Interrupted
- [ 1999, drama ]
❌ Kamikaze Girls
- [ 2004, comedy / teen ]
✅ Thirteen
- [ 2003, drama ]
❌ Virgin Suicides
- [ 1999, romance/drama ]
✅ Lolita
- [ 1962, drama ]
✅ PMM Rebellion
- [ 2013, anime/psychological]
❌ Sugar and Spice
- [ 2001, comedy/teen ]
✅ Heathers
- [ 1988, comedy/drama ]
❌ Ginger Snaps
- [ 2000, horror/fantasy ]